Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Heart of a woman

You think a woman is strong and she bears many things.
Have you learned anything from your mother's pain, or your syster's tears...?
Your mother beared a lot of sufference...but you saw that she made it, she raised her children with love and dedication. And this makes you think 'a woman is always strong, she can handle a lot'.
But did she beared the dissapontment ? Did she beared the betrail...the unfaithfulness...? Did she...?
How many women around you have to suffer for you to understand ?
How many women do you have to dissapoint in order to understand that a woman's heart is strong, but not made of stone?
Yes, it can bear it all, but she will feel every ounch of pain, every gram of sadness, every knife stubbed in her back...And her heart will bleed. Love.

Do you know how it feels like to be both in agony and extasy in the same time?
No, you haven't been blessed with such feeling yet...but you will.
In your next life you will be a woman, my dear one. And I promise you I will not be the man who will fail on you. I will be the syster to support you...

Cat's eyes

My cattish eyes can see the deep light through the dark night of your soul.
Now I know why you prefer dogs...

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I see you

I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender

I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
I see you


- Leona Lewis (Avatar theme)

Monday, December 28, 2009

Matthew 26:50

"Friend, do what you have come for."

I became insane

... with long intervals of horrible sanity."

- Edgar Alan Poe

21 grams

And how much fits in 21 grams...? How much it's lost ?
When we lose twenty-one grams ? How much goes with them...? How much is gained...?

Twenty-one grams.
The weigth of a stack of five nickels. The weight of a humming bird. A chocolate bar.

How much do twenty-one grams weight ?

The earth turned to bring us closer

it spun on itself and within us,
and finally joined us together in this dream
as written in the Symposium.
Nights passed by, snowfalls and solstices;
time passed in minutes and millennia.
An ox cart that was on its way to Nineveh
arrived in Nebraska.
A rooster was singing some distance from the world,
in one of the thousand pre-lives of our fathers.
The earth was spinning with its music
carrying us on board;
it didn't stop turning a single moment
as if so much love, so much that's miraculous
was only an adagio written long ago
in the Symposium's score."

- Eugenio Montejo

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Daca vrei sa fii Rege

"Ca sa fii rege peste animale, nu-i cine stie cat.
Trebuie doar sa fii mai puternic decat ele. Si-atat.
Ca sa fii rege peste pasari este putin mai greu. Dar frumos.
Trebuie sa zbori mereu mai inalt decat ele si niciodata mai jos.
Ca sa fii rege peste flori trebuie sa suporti la hotare maracinii si spinii si mai ales, trebuie sa inmiresmezi catre lume mai mult decat crinii.
Ca sa fii rege peste instelare trebuie sa te asezi printre luceferi – calator spre Orion si, reprivindu-te de jos, sa fii mai luminos decat oricare. Si fara truda.
Ca sa fii rege peste ape si vant trebuie sa inveti osanale ca ingerii si
sa le aduci pe pamint alinare pentru lacrima corbilor din Valea Plangerii.
Ca sa fii rege peste oameni este mai greu decat toate altceva.
Trebuie sa traiesti si sa mori pentru ei, invatindu-i ce inseamna a iubi, a ierta…
Dar, cel mai minunat, este sa poti fi rege peste tine insuti,
atunci cand alegi binele, fie din bucuria altuia, fie din plansul tau.
Si sa incheiem intelept si frumos. Si, mai ales, cum se cuvine.
Incoronarea ta o face Hristos cind mergi pe drumul dinspre rau spre bine.
In clipa aceea, Vesnicia te cumpaneste.

Daca vrei sa fii rege, alege binele!
Hei! Grabeste-te!”

- Benone Burtescu

Marul cunoasterii

Sunt oare singura careia i se pare ca marul asta al "cunoasterii" ne-a cam ramas in gat...?
Care cunoastere ???!!! Ca eu vad doar lipsa de discernamant in jurul meu...si nu numai.

Bine zicea Socrate: "stiu ca nu stiu nimic, si nici macar asta nu stiu".

Friday, December 25, 2009

My secret

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye."

- Antoine de St. Exupery

Perhaps...

...love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself."

- Antoine de St. Exupery

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Mozaic

- The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
- A New Earth (Eckhart Tolle)
- A beautiful mind (the movie)
- Lupul de Stepa (Herman Hesse)
- The Conference of the Birds (Farid ud-Attar)
- Samsara (the movie)
- My stroke of insight (Jill Bolte Taylor)
- The Little Soul and the Sun (Donald Walsch)
- Conversations with God (Donald Walsch)
- Inuaki, reptilianul din mine (Aryana Havah)
- Inuaki, cartea a 2-a (Aryana Havah)
- Mathnawi (Rumi)
- Flash forward (the tv series)
- The black swan theory (Nassim Taleb)
- The double slit experiment (cuantic physics)
- What the bleep do we know ? (cuantic physics)
- Flatland (cuantic physics)
- Entanglement (cuantic physics)
- The power of Now (Eckhart Tolle)
- Crazy (Gnarls Barkley)
- Cymatics - sound wave (experiment)
- Water experiment (Masuro Emoto)
- Holographic universe (cuantic physics)
- Oscar si tanti Roz (Emmanuel Schmitt)
- The prophet (Khalil Gibran)
- The Little Prince (Antoine de St. Exupery)
- The dark night of the soul (St. John of the Cross)
- Bab'Aziz - the prince who contemplated his soul (the movie)
- Avatar (the movie)
- Into the wild (the movie)
- Servers of the Divine Plan (anonymous)

Natural vs. Normal

"Daca actionezi cu iubire, vei actiona in mod natural. Daca re-actionezi plin de frica, de resentimente, cu furie, e posibil sa actionezi normal, dar niciodata nu vei actiona natural. "

- Donald Walsch (Conversatii cu Dumnezeu)

Exista Dumnezeu ?

Un barbat a mers la frizer sa se tunda. In timp ce frizerul a inceput sa il tunda pe client, cei doi au inceput o conversatie interesanta despre diverse subiecte. In cele din urma au ajuns sa vorbeasca despre Dumnezeu, iar frizerul a spus: "Nu cred ca Dumnezeu exista."
"De ce spui asta?" a intrebat clientul.
"Trebuie doar sa iesi pe strada si sa vezi ca Dumnezeu nu exista. Spune-mi, daca Dumnezeu ar exista, ar mai fi atatia oameni bolnavi? Ar mai fi copii abandonati? Daca Dumnezeu ar exista n-ar mai fi suferinta si durere. Nu-mi pot imagina cum ar fi sa iubesti un Dumnezeu care permite asemenea lucruri sa se intample."
Clientul s-a gandit pentru un moment dar nu a raspuns pentru ca nu vroia sa inceapa o discutie in contradictoriu.Peste putin timp, frizerul termina de tuns si clientul pleca mai departe. Imediat ce a iesit din frizerie a vazut insa pe strada un om neingrijit, cu parul lung si murdar. Parea un om sarman.
Clientul s-a intors la frizer si i-a spus:" Stii ceva? Frizerii nu exista!"
"Cum poti spune asta?" a intrebat frizerul nedumerit. "Eu sunt aici si sunt un frizer. Si tocmai te-am aranjat!"
"Nu e asa!" a spus clientul. "Frizeri nu exista pentru ca daca ar exista nu ar mai fi oameni cu par lung si neingrijit, ca omul de afara."
"Dar frizerii exista! Ceea ce se intampla e ca oamenii nu vin la mine."
"Exact!" a spus clientul plin de incantare."Asta e ideea! Si Dumnezeu exista! Ceea ce se intampla este ca oamenii nu merg la El si nu Il cauta. De aceea exista atata durere si suferinta in lume."

- Octavian Paler

Monday, December 21, 2009

Giving up...

"I must be willing to give up what I am in order to become what I will be"

- Einstein

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Nine of swords

The Nine of Swords represents the dark hours of loneliness, grief and despair. It is not only about the one who has lost, but also about the one who is lost. Both suffer the pain of separation and it is in the still hours of the night that the memories surface unchallenged by the sunlight. It is an internal grief; yet the one who has lost will find what they seek if the search is continued. The swords appear to be confining, yet they do not completely close around the one who is lost. Once the daylight returns, the path through the swords will be revealed, and the one who is lost will find the way home.

- Aeclectic

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Binecuvanteaza, Doamne

Fulgii de nea
Binecuvanteaza, Doamne
Lacrima mea
Binecuvanteaza, Doamne
Omatul greu
Binecuvanteaza, Doamne
Zambetul meu.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Are you ready ?

"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny."

- Paulo Coelho

And now you are cursed

"Every blessing ignored becomes a curse. I don't want anything else in life. But you are forcing me to look at wealth and at horizons I have never known. Now that I have seen them, and now that I see how immense my possibilities are, I'm going to feel worse than I did before you arrived. Because I know the things I should be able to accomplish, and I don't want to do so."

- Paulo Coelho

Step into the Light

"Every Warrior of the Light has felt afraid of going into battle. Every Warrior of the Light has, at some time in the past, lied or betrayed someone. Every Warrior of the Light has trodden a path that was not his. Every Warrior of the Light has suffered for the most trivial of reasons. Every Warrior of the Light has, at least once, believed he was not a Warrior of the Light. Every Warrior of the Light has failed in his spiritual duties. Every Warrior of the Light has said 'yes' when he wanted to say 'no.' Every Warrior of the Light has hurt someone he loved. That is why he is a Warrior of the Light, because he has been through all this and yet has never lost hope of being better than he is."

- Paulo Coelho

Be informed

"If you are a REAL princess, be careful. Your kiss can turn "princes" into frogs..."

- Paulo Coelho

Singing to your heart

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words "

Monday, December 7, 2009

Sway with me

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Spune-mi o poveste

Nu stiu cum se face, dar de ceva timp incoace am inceput sa percep lumea un pik altfel.
Aceeasi lume, aceleasi locuri, aceleasi lucruri, doar ca ...altfel. Nu stiu cum sa explic clar lucrul asta, dar pot spune cu siguranta ca resimt dezamagirile si bucuriile invers proportional, in sensul ca dezamagirile au un impact mai mic (si asta nu pt ca ar fi ele ne-semnificative, dimpotriva) iar bucuriile unul mai mare (si asta nu pt ca ar fi ele semnificative, dimpotriva).
Azi s-a intamplat ceva ce mi-a amintit de copilarie. Am simtit ca Viata se joaca cum mine la cel mai frumos mod posibil.
Acum ceva vreme m-a invitat la dans si ma simteam plutind pe pasi de vals.
Astazi am auzit-o soptindu-mi la ureche o poveste frumoasa...si, pentru prima oara dupa multa vreme, m-am bucurat ca un copil. Am retrait acea senzatie deosebita pe care am avut-o atunci cand, copil fiind, ascultam fascinata povesti la pick-up sau pe caseta.
Ca adult intotdeauna am avut tendinta ca atunci cand citeam sau ascultam o poveste sa reactionez fie cu scepticism realist - despicat firul in 4, analizat, contestatetc - fie cu un soi de entuziasm materialist prin care incercam sa ma autoconving ca povestea respectiv este despre mine si asa se va intampla si in viata mea...consecinta fiind dezamagirea de rigoare, in final.
Azi m-am bucurat de povestea Vietii asa cum se bucura un copil: fascinat, entuziasmat, uimit, naiv, inocent, fara intrebari, fara asteptari, fara ganduri...doar suras si bucurie.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Avatars

We are all avatars of God...

If you go

Go, in order to come back.
If you keep silent, keep it in order to speak the truth.
If you keep distance, keep it in order to come closer.
If you cry, cry in order to inner smile.
If you ignore, ignore in order to know.
If you pretend deaf, be deaf in order to hear the whispering.
If you are awake, be awake in order to dream.
If you deny yourself, do it in order to remember yourself...

Decalog

Prima poruncă: Să aştepţi oricât.
A doua poruncă: Să aştepţi orice.
A treia poruncă: Să nu-ţi aminteşti, în schimb, orice. Nu sunt bune decât amintirile care te ajută să trăieşti în prezent.
A patra poruncă: Să nu numeri zilele.
A cincea poruncă: Să nu uiţi că orice aşteptare e provizorie, chiar dacă durează toată viaţa.
A şasea poruncă: Repetă că nu există pustiu. Există doar incapacitatea noastră de a umple golul în care trăim.
A şaptea poruncă: Nu pune în aceeaşi oală şi rugăciunea şi pe Dumnezeu. Rugăciunea este uneori o formă de a spera a celui ce nu îndrăzneşte să spere singur.
A opta poruncă: Dacă gândul ăsta te ajută, nu evita să recunoşti că speri neavând altceva mai bun de făcut sau chiar pentru a te feri de urmările faptului că nu faci nimic.
A noua poruncă: Binecuvântează ocazia de a-ţi aparţine în întregime. Singurătatea e o târfă care nu te învinuieşte că eşti egoist.
A zecea poruncă: Aminteşte-ţi că paradisul a fost, aproape sigur, într-o grotă.

- Octavian Paler

Nu mi-e frica de Dumnezeu

... ci de absenta lui Dumnezeu."

- Octavian Paler

Dance me to the end of Love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love


Dance me to the wedding now, dance me on and on
Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long
We're both of us beneath our love, we're both of us above
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the children who are asking to be born
Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn
Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in
Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

The High Priestess

Continuing his journey, the Fool comes upon a beautiful and mysterious veiled lady enthroned between two pillars and illuminated by the moon. She is the opposite of the Magician, quiet where he was loquacious, still where he was in motion, sitting while he stood, shrouded in the night where he was out in the bright of day. She is the High Priestess and she astonishes the Fool by knowing everything about him. "Since you know me so well, perhaps you can help me," says the Fool, laying out his sword, chalice, staff and pentacle. "The Magician showed me these tools, but now I'm in a quandary. There's so many things I could do with them. I can't decide." In answer, the High Priestess hands over to him a pair of ancient scrolls. "These will teach you how to decide." Seating himself at her feet, the Fool reads by the light of her crescent moon. Finally, the Fool knows enough that he can now decide what he wants, where he will go, and what he will do. Though he suspects that the High Priestess has even more secrets she could teach him--like what lies behind the pomegranate curtain--he is focused and ready to be on his way. Thanking the High Priestess, he heads off. But as he leaves he hears her whisper, quiet as the waters which bubble up from beneath her throne, "We'll meet again...when you're ready to travel the most secret path of all."

- Aeclectic

Karma cards

My karmic card: Nine of Diamonds
This person owes you and you are their mirror in some way.

Your karmic card: Queen of Diamonds
You owe something to this person and they reflect you in some way.

Nine of Diamonds

The Card of Universal Values and The Giver's Card
(destiny birth card)


Nine of Diamonds people are here to let go and complete a major chapter in their evolution. This entails a lot of giving to others. If they have not heeded the call to give and let go of others, money, relationships, and love, their life can be filled with disappointment and remorse. Those on the positive side are philanthropic and generous, happy and productive. All have the opportunity to experience first hand, the heightened consciousness that comes from living a "universal" life. Despite losses from time to time, these people can do very well in business, especially when it involves selling or other creative enterprises. If they keep money in proper perspective they may even attain affluence. A disregard for the higher laws will inevitably result in misfortune and misery. They should be careful while driving and in taking other chances. They can be reckless. Marriage is usually karmic and often long lasting. The men should always beware of female Clubs cards.

Queen of Diamonds

The Philanthropist Card
(destiny birth card)

Like some other cards in the deck, the Queen of Diamonds has much indecision about values (Three of Diamonds Karma Card). Although they are in the royal suit of money, they are often worried about money and have some difficulty in managing it. Queen of Diamonds are known to be charming and enjoy the finer things in life. Often they spend beyond their budget and this adds to their financial worries. Their Three of Diamonds Karma Card speaks of indecision about what they want that has them constantly seeking new adventures and sometimes relationships as well. Many of the world's greatest givers are Queen of Diamonds, though personal relationships are usually difficult because of the indecision about what they want and their changeable nature. If they adopt a spiritual path in life and realize that they have a mission, they can achieve the heights of spiritual realization and self-mastery (Queen of Spades in Neptune). This realization will also dispel all of the problems that they have with money and love.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Iesi din minti

Si revino-ti in simturi!

Cereti

...si vi se va da.
Cautati si veti gasi.
Bateti si vi se va deschide.

Africa

"I hear the drums echoing tonight
But she hears only whispers of some quiet conversation
She's coming in, 12:30 flight
The moonlit wings reflect the stars that guide me towards salvation
I stopped an old man along the way
Hoping to find some old forgotten words or ancient melodies
He turned to me as if to say
"Hurry boy, it's waiting there for you"

It's gonna take a lot to drag me away from you
There's nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do
I bless the rains down in Africa
Gonna take some time to do the things we never had

The wild dogs cry out in the night
As they grow restless longing for some solitary company
I know that I must do what's right
Sure as Kilimanjaro rises like a leopardess above the Serengetti
I seek to cure what's deep inside
Frightened of this thing that I've become

It's gonna take a lot to drag me away from you
There's nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do
I bless the rains down in Africa

Gonna take some time to do the things we never had

Hurry boy, she's waiting there for you"

- Toto

Life is...

...what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."

- John Lenon

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I am just a messenger

You sent me long time ago, to deliver this message to you...and now you killed me.

You can kill the messenger...but not the message.

Din pulberea durerii mele...

...fac balsam pentru vederea mea."

- Rumi

Monday, November 30, 2009

A thousand kisses deep

No matter if the road is long
No matter if it's steep
No matter if the moon is gone
and the darkness is complete
No matter if we lose our way, it's written that we'll meet
At least that 's what I heard you say say
A thousand kisses deep.

- Leonard Cohen

Fear of Love ?

One can make a decision for his/her life based on Fear or based on Love.
If the decision is made on Fear, then this life will be just a fake.
And in the end will fail.
This is the good news.

The bad news is that (most ?) people don't believe in Love anymore and the next decision they will make for their lives will be most probably made based on Fear again...

Friday, November 27, 2009

Seeing Angels

Why do I deserve such a visit
From the one I thought I'd never meet.
Beyond my greatest expectations.
You exceeded everything.

Well, here I am
Take me for what you see
For I'm transparent in the light of you.
And look inside,
See that fire burning bright
The same one that you rekindled inside me

My mouth was dry
only you quenched my thirst
I thought I was last
You told me I was first.

And I thought I was seeing Angels
And now I know I was.

your wings around me
Feel good they always does.

So there I was
Ain't the same man I used to be
But do you still like what you see in me.

Still see through,
always will be with you.
can you stand to see my vulnerability

For I am frightened
Shed so much I clung onto
The only things I have left is this guitar and you.

Nowhere to run
Been out here too long
Under the sun.
Am I too afraid
To get some.
Too afraid to give myself some shade
I hope and pray I do some day.

- John Butler Trio

Message in a bottle

Just a castaway, an island lost at sea, oh
Another lonely day, with no one here but me, oh
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair, oh

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle,


A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but
Love can break your heart

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

Walked out this morning, don't believe what I saw
Hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems I'm not alone in being alone
Hundred billion castaways, looking for a home

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

- John Butler Trio

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Complete circle

"The soul conceives, the mind creates, the body experiences.
The circle is complete."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

A new dictionary

Sometimes I cannot find an actual word to express what I feel or experience lately.
And I try to imagine how would a visitor from the future explain to a medieval what 'internet clouding' is...for example.

I need a new dictionary/vocabulary...

Infinite monkey

"If you have enough monkeys banging randomly on typewriters, they will eventually type the works of William Shakespeare."

really...???

I wonder what Shakespeare would have to say about this theorem.
He would probably just laugh at it :)

God is a faithless DJ...

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
It's a natural grace
Of watching young life shape
It's in minor keys
Solutions and remedies
Enemies becoming friends
When bitterness ends
This is my church (x3)

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
It's in the world I become
Contained in the hum
Between voice and drum
It's in the change
The poetic justice of cause and effect
Respect, love, compassion

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
For tonight
God is a DJ
God is a DJ
This is my church (x3)

As good as it gets

"You make me want to be a better man..."

Something stupid

I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time to spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance,
I know that there's a chance you won't be leaving with me
And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you, for me it's true
It never seemed so right before
I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
And I'm alone with you
The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"("I love you, I love you,...")

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

There are more things

... in Heaven and Earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”


- Shakespeare (Hamlet)

I died

"I died from minerality and became vegetable;
And from vegetativeness I died and became animal.
I died from animality and became man.
Then why fear disappearance through death?
Next time I shall die
Bringing forth wings and feathers like angels;
After that, soaring higher than angels -
What you cannot imagine,
I shall be that."

- Rumi

Wherever you are

I’m looking for a strong and steady heart
For a love that won’t fall apart
At the first sign of trouble, near or far
I’m looking through eyes that have shed some tears
And I’m looking for that one who’s gonna face my fears
Without thinking he must erase each scar

I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are
Wherever you are love won’t leave you stranded
Wherever you are love won’t let you hide
Wherever you are, one of these days
We’ll be walking side by side
All it takes is some time and destiny

A little courage for those days when all we see
Is a cold lonely rain coming down hard
I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are
Wherever you are love won’t leave you stranded
Wherever you are love won’t let you hide
Wherever you are, one of these days
We’ll be walking side by side

I’m looking for a love that’s meant for me
I can’t be bothered with some wannabe
Just like the light from heaven’s stars
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Soul, body and mind

The function of the soul is to indicate its desire, not impose it.
The function of the mind is to choose from its alternatives.
The function of the body is to act out that choice.
When body, mind, and soul create together, in harmony and in unity, God is made flesh.
Then does the soul know itself in its own experience.
Then do the heavens rejoice.

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Monday, November 23, 2009

"Traiti bine?"

"Noi nu. Furam mai bine pana in 2004."

Sa imi explice, va rog, si mie cineva ce vrea sa insemne acest mesaj electoral (?!) pentru ca mintea mea refuza sa accepte realitatea.

Va multumesc anticipat.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Try laughter

"You keep saying you’re embarrassed and chagrined every time I simply tell the truth about you.
Embarrass­ment is the response of a person who still has an
ego investment in how others see him.
Invite yourself to move past that. Try a new response. Try laughter."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Om de lut

Mi-a trimis Dumnezeu un om de lut
sa nu fiu singura pe pamant

Om de lut cu ochi de cobalt,
in apele lor adanci ma scald.

Om de lut, cu gura de floare,
o vorba m-alina, alta ma doare...

- Margareta Sterian (Om de Lut)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Her morning elegance

Sun been down for days
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in its case

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up
And she fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Sun been down for days
A winter melody she plays
The thunder makes her contemplate
She hears a noise behind the gate
Perhaps a letter with a dove
Perhaps a stranger she could love
And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
Where people are pleasently strange
And counting the change
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Freedom vs. Happiness

What is happiness if you don't allow yourself the freedom to be who you are, at your full potential ?

What is happiness if you prefer to be like a bird singing in a golden cage...admired by everybody, but affraid to allow yourself the freedom of flying...?

What is happiness if you are looking for it only on the pre-defined scenario you've imagined for your life and not allowing yourself the freedom of an unwritten ending...?

The happiness without the freedom will be just the other face of the sadness...

Monday, November 16, 2009

Pourposefully

- Okay. So I want to find the tools for a long-term relation­ship - and you say entering relationships purposefully is one of them.
- Yes. Be sure you and your mate agree on purpose. If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportu­nity, not an obligation - an opportunity for growth, for full Self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you, and for ultimate reunion with God through the communion of your two souls - if you take that vow instead of the vows you’ve been taking - the relationship has begun on a very good note. It’s gotten off on the right foot. That’s a very good beginning.
- Still, it’s no guarantee of success.
- If you want guarantees in life, then you don’t want life. You want rehearsals for a script that’s already been written. Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.
- Okay. Got it. So now I’ve got my relationship off to this very good start.” Now, how do I keep it going?
- Know and understand that there will be challenges and difficult times. Don’t try to avoid them. Welcome them. Gratefully. See them as grand gifts from God; glorious opportuni­ties to do what you came into the relationship - and life - to do. Try very hard not to see your partner as the enemy, or the opposition, during these times."

Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

People don't change

They just remember their Selves.
Or forget their Selves...

I'm dancing with my loneliness again...

i'm dancing with my loneliness again
slowly to the music from within.
i'm dancing with my loneliness again
feeling it can be my only friend.
and i won't let myself go it's too near
- too near to hear, near to hear... to hear...

i'm dancing with my loneliness inside
knowing there's no place where i can hide
dancing with my loneliness inside
there's no other place for me to hide
and i won't let myself go out and cry
i wonder why, i wonder why...

i'm dancing ... romancing

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Iubeste si fa ce vrei

"Daca pastrezi tacerea, sa fie din iubire; daca strigi sa fie din iubire; daca indrepti, indreapta din iubire; daca ierti, iarta din iubire. Radacina interioara sa fie cea a iubirii, din aceasta radacina nu poate iesi decat bine.”

- Fericitul Augustin

Monday, November 9, 2009

Keep doing what you don't

I didn't love you for what you did and i will not stop loving you for what you don't.

Beautiful that way

Smile, without a reason why
Love, as if you were a child,
Smile, no matter what they tell you
Don't listen to a word they say
Cause life is beautiful that way.

Tears, a tidal wave of tears
Light, that slowly disappears
Wait, before you close the curtain
There is still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way

Here with his eyes forevermore
I will always be as close as you
remember from before
Now that you're out there on your own
Remember what is real
and what we dream is love alone

Keep the laughter in you eyes
Soon your long awaited prize
We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day
Cause life is beautiful that way.

Listen to it

If you chose stop listening to Life this doesn't mean Life stops talking to you...

Sunday, November 8, 2009

The Lovers

Basic Card Symbols
An angel or cupid, a man and a woman, two trees (in Waite, it is Adam & Eve with one tree having a serpent and apples) - in some decks one tree is flowering, but the other has fruit. Also in some decks there is a man standing between two women.

Basic Tarot Story
The Fool comes to a cross-road, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do. But he comes to a dead stop. A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he's been planning on taking. But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman. He's met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring. But she is different. Seeing her, he feels as though he's just been shot in the heart with cupid's arrow, so shocking, so painful is his "recognition" of her. As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies; like finding a missing part of himself, a part he's been searching for his life long. It is clear that she feels the same about him. They finish each others sentences, think the same thoughts. It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other. Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, to go somewhere else entirely, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind. Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him. No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future. He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

- Aeclectic

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Re-member

"Each soul is a Master - though some do not remember their origins or their heritages. Yet each creates the situation and the circumstance for its own highest purpose and its own quickest re-membering in each moment called now.

Judge not, then, the karmic path walked by another. Envy not success, not pity failure, for you know not what is success or failure in the soul's reckoning."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Playing golf

Three men were playing golf. The course was a wicked dogleg with a large water hazard.

The first man stepped up to the tee and hit a sharp slice into the water hazard. He walked up to the water; it parted and he lofted his ball within one foot of the hole.

The next man steped up and hit the ball. Sure enough, he sliced it so that it landed on top of the water. He walked across the surface of the water and and hit the ball within six inches of the hole.The third man stepped up, hit the ball, and sliced it. The ball was just about to land in the water when a trout jumped out of the water and grabbed it in his mouth. An eagle swooped down, scooped up the fish, and flew off. As the eagle banked over the green, lightning struck it, it dropped the fish, the fish dropped the ball, and it landed in the hole for a hole in one.

Moses turned to Jesus and said, "I really hate playing golf with your Dad."

Like swans on a lake

Maybe we are all like swans on a lake.
None is better, none is worse. None is above, none is below.
However, some of the swans know who they are and enjoy their beingness as such, enjoy their grace and beauty, floating on the lake.
But some other keep on being concerned and ask themselves where do they belong to, who are they, what is their meaning, where is their place, what are they supposed to do, where do they have to go...etc.

I like for you to be still

"I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not touch you
It seems as though your eyes had flown away
And it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth
As all things are filled with my soul
You emerge from the things
Filled with my soul
You are like my soul
A butterfly of dream
And you are like the word: Melancholy

I like for you to be still
And you seem far away
It sounds as though you are lamenting
A butterfly cooing like a dove
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not reach you
Let me come to be still in your silence
And let me talk to you with your silence
That is bright as a lamp
Simple, as a ring
You are like the night
With its stillness and constellations
Your silence is that of a star
As remote and candid

I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
Distant and full of sorrow
So you would've died

One word then,
One smile is enough
And I'm happy;
Happy that it's not true"


- Pablo Neruda

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Dreamcatcher

Hear my silent prayer
Heed my quiet call
When the dark and blue surround you
Step into my sigh
Look inside the light
You will know that
I have found you...

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Tip of the iceberg

I've recently realized that some relationships are like an iceberg.
And I don't mean cold as an iceberg, but rather deep.

You see the tip of the iceberg, that surface side of the relationship, where everything is visible and bright, sparkling and joyful. You enjoy the visible, manifested side of it, through communication, sharing thoughts, feelings, music, movies, books, ideas, opinions...kisses and touchings.

And then, one days, all this stops.
And you feel sad because you think you lost something beautiful and so intense. And you are forced (?) to leave the iceberg and to take distance. However, you feel still connected, deep inside, you still feel that there is something more than this. You can feel it, but you cannot see it, and you start wondering if you lost your minds or what ?!

And while you are taking the distance, vertically or horizontally, at some point you turn and see the iceberg on its holy wholeness: the visible lighted tip...and also the hidden body of it, emerged into the deep blue waters of the ocean.
And that moment is a pure moment of bliss...and you realize that the ocean is nothing but yourself, your inner self (part of the universal Self) where the iceberg came from the first place...and where it majestically submerges and floats now...and where it will silently melt later.

Let's play !

So, first you hide yourself
And then you seek yourself.
In order to find yourself.

I'll play this game with you, but I'll have to pretend I never found you.
Or myself...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Have you ever really loved a woman ?

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

To really love a woman
Let her hold you
Do you know how she needs to be touched ?
You gotta breath her
Really taste her
To you can feel her in your blood
Then when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

You got to give her some faith
Hold her tight
A little tenderness
You gotta treat her right
She'll be there for you
Taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Thank you, my friend !

-"But what will you do?" the Little Soul asked, just a little nervously, "that will be so terrible?"
-"Oh," replied the Friendly Soul with a twinkle, "we'll think of something."
Then the Friendly Soul seemed to turn serious, and said in a quiet voice, "You are right about one thing, you know."
-"What is that?" the Little Soul wanted to know.
-"I will have to slow down my vibration and become very heavy to do this not-so-nice thing. I will have to pretend to be something very unlike myself. And so, I have but one favour to ask of you in return."
-"Oh, anything, anything!" cried the Little Soul, and began to dance and sing, "I get to be forgiving, I get to be forgiving!"
Then the Little Soul saw that the Friendly Soul was remaining very quiet.
-"What is it?" the Little Soul asked. "What can I do for you? You are such an angel to be willing to do this for me!"
-"Of course this Friendly Soul is an angel!" God interrupted. "Everyone is! Always remember: I have sent you nothing but angels."
And so the Little Soul wanted more than ever to grant the Friendly Soul's request.
- "What can I do for you?" the Little Soul asked again.
-"In the moment that I strike you and smite you," the Friendly Soul replied, "in the moment that I do the worst to you that you could possible imagine ~ in that very moment..."
-"Yes?" the Little Soul interrupted, "yes...?"
- "Remember Who I Really Am."
-"Oh, I will!" cried the Little Soul, "I promise! I will always remember you as I see you right here, right now!"
-"Good," said the Friendly Soul, "because, you see, I will have been pretending so hard, I will have forgotten myself. And if you do not remember me as I really am, I may not be able to remember for a very long time. And if I forget Who I Am, you may even forget Who You Are, and we will both be lost. Then we will need another soul to come along and remind us both of Who We Are."
-"No, we won't!" the Little Soul promised again. "I will remember you! And I will thank you for bringing me this gift ~ the chance to experience myself as Who I Am.
-" And so, the agreement was made. And the Little Soul went forth into a new lifetime, excited to be the Light, which was very special, and excited to be that part of special called Forgiveness.
And the Little Soul waited anxiously to be able to experience itself as Forgiveness, and to thank whatever other soul made it possible. And at all the moments in that new lifetime, whenever a new soul appeared on the scene, whether that new soul brought joy or sadness--and especially if it brought sadness--the Little Soul thought of what God had said.
- "Always remember," God had smiled, "I have sent you nothing but angels."


The Little Soul and The Sun - A Children's Parable by Neale Donald Walsch

Monday, October 26, 2009

King's Fool

In this play your name might not be Lear. And my role not to make jokes.
But the rest is just the same.
So is the Truth.

MAGIC THEATER

ENTRANCE NOT FOR EVERYBODY
FOR MADMAN ONLY !


...or madwoman
soul brothers and soul sisters...

Steppenwolf

“Whoever wants music instead of noise, joy instead of pleasure, soul instead of gold, creative work instead of business, passion instead of foolery, finds no home in this trival world of ours.”~151

“I say to myself: all we who ask too much and have a dimension too many could not contrive to live at all if there were not another air to breathe outside the air of this world; if there were not another eternity at the back of time; and this is the kingdom of truth.”~152

- Herman Hesse (Steppenwolf)

Friday, October 23, 2009

Lost generation (?)

" I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a timeFamilies stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my
divorceI do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it . "

(Lost generation by Jonathan Reed)

now read these lines from the bottom to the top
what do WE choose, in the end...?

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I'm loving angels instead...

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
when I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know I'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Enlightened relationships

" So whenever your relationship is not working, whenever it brings out the "madness" in you and in your partner, be glad. What was unconscious is being brought up to the light. It is an opportunity for salvation. Every moment, hold the knowing of that moment, particularly of your inner state. If there is anger, know that there is anger. If there is jealousy, defensiveness, the urge to argue, the need to be right, an inner child demanding love and attention, or emotional pain of any kind ― whatever it is, know the reality of that moment and hold the knowing. The relationship then becomes your sadhana, your spiritual practice. If you observe unconscious behavior in your partner, hold it in the loving embrace of your knowing so that you won't react. Unconsciousness and knowing cannot coexist for long ― even if the knowing is only in the other person and not in the one who is acting out the unconsciousness. The energy form that lies behind hostility and attack finds the presence of love absolutely intolerable. If you react at all to your partner's unconsciousness, you become unconscious yourself. But if you then remember to know your reaction, nothing is lost. "

- Eckhart Tolle (The Power of the NOW)

Friday, October 16, 2009

Templul Soarelui

O seara rece de octombrie, cu temperaturi sub cele normale pentru aceasta perioada si vant puternic. Si pe cat de catzea era vremea de afara, pe atat de pisicoasa atmosfera dinauntru: la restaurantul Templul Soarelui. Muzica in surdina, relaxanta, arome proaspete si abur cald iesind din boluri, lumina placuta si...un fel de bucurie ce plutea in aer.
Nu stiu cine a bucatar in acel local, dar cu siguranta pune suflet cand gateste. Si asta se simte.

La Multi Ani, Gabitza !!!!! :)))

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

When you (really) lose hope...

...something special happens: you are no more tortoured by the bitter-sweet spectrum of a possible future happiness, but you feel happy in the simple present.

Hope is just another drug.

Not your martyr

The price I am paying is no price.
Your pain is no pain.
Love is not something that I trade.
Love just is. I just am.

It's all around ... outside and inside.
It flows through...and I let it be.

Back from Zombieland

Cochetam intelectual cu ideea ca trecutul e mort iar viitorul nu s-a nascut inca, si totusi traiam practic in taramul Mortilor Vii. Probabil ca era mai comod sa ma tot plang de trecut si sa imi ling ranile intr-un mod elegant, ca pisica, tacticoasa, facand pe interesanta, in loc sa ma bucur cu adevarat de momentul prezent care, prin simplitatea frumusetii lui te poate lasa fara grai. " Vai !!! cum, ai spus 'fara grai' ????!!!! Nu, nu, nu, nu se poate. EU (trebuie sa) am replica la orice. Ai inteles ??? Orice !!!! "
Si cand ma plictiseam de lins ranile, postam in happy-to-be, la gandul ca voi face cutare si cutare kestie, gen o calatorie interesanta, un concert, o intalnire etc etc etc.

Deci, sa revenim, ca deja deviez: ziceam ca trecutul e mort si viitorul nu s-a nascut inca. Pana aici toate bune. Asta inseamna ca: 1. Trecutul se odihneste in pace (despre morti numai de bine) iar 2. Viitorul cand se va naste va fi deja ... Prezentul.

Ura si la gara !!!! :))

All roads lead to Rome

Today a friend posted this story about an amazing man who's wonderful mind can carry the smallest detail of an image.

When I checked the video, my wonderful hart remembered all the little details I carry about Rome: the imperial city of the eternal ...rise and fall.
In love.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Magic (not) for free

“When two people meet and fall in love, there's a sudden rush of magic. Magic is just naturally present then. We tend to feed on that gratuitous magic without striving to make any more. One day we wake up and find that the magic is gone. We hustle to get it back, but by then it's usually too late, we've used it up. What we have to do is work like hell at making additional magic right from the start. It's hard work, but if we can remember to do it, we greatly improve our chances of making love stay.”

- Tom Robbins

p.s. this idea reminds me of the Celestine Prophecy: Romantic Addiction

Monday, October 12, 2009

Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Mysterious equation

"I've made the most important discovery of my career... the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am... You are all my reasons. "

- A beautiful mind

Stradivarius

Vineri seara, Muzeul National de Arta.
La intrare o mare de oameni, agitati, nervosi, galagiosi, inghesuiti si revoltati incearca sa intre la concertul cu "intrare libera" sustinut de Alexandru Tomescu la celebra vioara Stradivarius.

Noroc ca facusem rezervare, altfel nu aveam nicio sansa.
Asa ca m-am imbulzit senina printre zecile de oameni nervosi si am ajuns in sala.
Parca am ajuns in alta lume...Totul era in semi-intuneric, liniste...joc de lumini si culori de la tablourile proiectate pe scena si, bineinteles, jocul minunat al sunetelor stradivariene.
Sublim.

Morala: mai intai trebuie sa treci prin iad ca sa ajungi in rai.

p.s. Multumim Alexandru Tomescu pentru bucuria pe care o impartasesti cu noi.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

A beautiful mind

"Once you have identified with some form of negativity, you do not want to let go, and on a deeply unconscious level, you do not want positive change. It would threaten your identity as a depressed, angry, or hard-done-by-person. You will ignore, deny or sabotage the positive in your life. This is a common phenomenon. It is also insane.

Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through your own pain...you are using something or somebody to cover up your pain. That is why, after the initial euphoria has passed , there is so much unhappiness, so much pain in intimate relationships. they do not cause pain and unhappiness. They bring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in you. Every addiction does that.

Nobody chooses dysfunction, conflict, pain. Nobody chooses insanity. This happens because there is not enough presence in you to dissolve the past...You are not fully here. You have not quite woken up yet. In the meantime, the conditioned mind is running your life....if you are one of those people who have an issue with their parents, if you still harbour resentment about something they did or did not do, then you still believe they had a choice--that they could have acted differently. It always looks as if people had a choice, but that is an illusion. As long as your mind with its conditioned patterns runs your life, as long as you are your mind, what choice do you have? None. You are not even there. The mind-identified state is severely dysfunctional. It is a form of insanity. Almost everyone is suffering from this illness in varying degrees. The moment you realise this, there can be no more resentment. How can you resent someone's illness? The only appropriate response is compassion. "

- Eckhart Tolle (The power of the NOW)

Friday, October 9, 2009

How it feels to have a stroke ?

It's like a bliss...

Strongest drug

= L I F E

p.s. no need for substitutes to feel alive :)

Praying for a miracle

...I realized that the miracle was already happening every second and it's called LIFE.

Thank you God !

Joy

"Joy does not come from what you do, it flows into what you do and thus into this world from deeper in you."

- Eckhart Tolle

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Can you hear the silence ?

The snow has its own language.

Note to self

- Don't take yourself too seriously.
- Don't take it too personally.

Happiness

is like a kiss...you have to share it to enjoy it."

- Bernard Meltzer

Cutia cu bijuterii

Multa vreme mi s-a parut absurda ideea de a iubi doi barbati in acelasi timp. Mintea mea pur si simplu nu accepta lucrul asta. Dar inima mea stie acum ca e posibil: fiecare relatie si experienta de viata petrecuta alaturi de un barbat pe care l-am iubit mi-au lasat drept mostenire o amintire. Dar nu o amintire in sensul de "fotografie de album" ci o amintire speciala...pe care nu o pot descrie, dar pe care o pot compara cu ...o bijuterie. Si in inima mea am o cutie cu bijuterii. Si imi aduc aminte cu drag de fiecare data momentele din viata mea cand am purtat cu mandrie si bucurie cate una din aceste bijuterii.

Dragostea nu dispare, ea ramane acolo...se transforma in ceea ce ai tu cel mai de pret. Si lacrimile se transforma in...perle.

De curand am pus in cutia pretioasa un diamant nebun...frumos.

In depth

vertically and not in time horizontally you will find what you are looking for...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

On children

"Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your childrenas living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
And He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable."

- Kahlil Gibran

On marriage

"You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow. "

- Kahlil Gibran

If you are the Ocean

then I am the Shore.
If you are the Words, then I am the Space between your words.
If you are the Thoughts, then I am the Silence between your thoughts.
If you are the Dancer, then I am the Dance you dance.
If you are the Dreamer, then I am the Dream you dream.
If you are the Diamond, then I am the Shine on you.
If you are the Traveller, then I am the Road you less travelled.
If you are the Knight, then I am your Courage.
If you are the Tree, then I am your Stilness.
If you are the Eagle, then I am your Flight.
If you are the King, then I am your Crown.

If you are, then I am
And we are LIFE.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Lost

Stand still.
The trees ahead and bushes beside you are not lost.
Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes.
Listen.
It answers,I have made this place around you.
If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost.
Stand still.
The forest knows where you are.
You must let it find you.

- David Wagoner

Monday, October 5, 2009

Pain

Maybe pain is like a sharp knife that helps you cut through the deep illusion of this world.
But be careful, don't use it to hurt yourself. Or others.

Sun is shining

Sun is shining, the weather is sweet, yeah
Make you wanna move your dancing feet now
To the rescue, here I am
Want you to know, yall, can you understand?

When the mornin gather the rainbow, yeah, yeah
Want you to know, Im a rainbow too now
To the rescue, here I am
Want you to know, yall, can you, can you, can you understand?

Sun is shining, the weather is sweet now
Make you wanna move your dancing feet, yeah
But to the rescue, here I am
Want you to know just if you can, here I stand, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

Can you understand me now, baby?
Do you believe me?

Let it be

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be,
let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be...

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light,
that shines on me, shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be...

In the end

...everything will be ok.

If it's not ok, it's not the end.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Wish you were here

like waves to the shore
part of the ocean
the stars high above
part of the sky

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

like the air that i breathe
you'll always be there
the wings that i need
when i wanna fly

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Goodnight lovers

Here, somewhere in the heart of me
There is still a part of me
That cares

And i'll, I'll still take the best you've got
Even though I'm sure it's not
The best for me

When you're born a lover
You're born to suffer
Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

I, I can see the danger signs
They only help to underline
Your beauty

I'm not looking for an easy ride
True happiness cannot be tried
So easily

You can take your time
I'll be waiting in line
You don't even have to give me
The time of day

When youre born a lover
Youre born to suffer
Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

Friday, October 2, 2009

Bad wolf, good wolf

A Kid asked his Grandfather: "Why are some people Bad and some Good ? Why do some people do Adultry ? Murder ? Drunks ?" Etc Etc

The Grandfather said: "Because Each of Us has on the Inside the ability to do Good or Evil. It's like we have 2 wolves inside us. One wolf is Evil. One wolf is Good. One or the other will grow strong and big and be able to do as it wants most of time."

Little Kid asked: "How do you know which wolf is the one that gets big and takes over ?"

The Grandfather said : "It Depends on which wolf you FEED !"

Love is when...

...someone hurts you. But you don't let them see you crying because you know it would hurt their feelings."

- a child

Dream on

As your bony fingers close around me
Long and spindly
Death becomes me
Heaven can you see what I see
Hey you pale and sickly child
You're death and living reconciled
Been walking home a crooked mile

Paying debt to karma
You party for a living
What you take won't kill you
But careful what you're giving

Can you feel a little love ?
Can you feel a little love ?
Dream on, dream on

There's no time for hesitating
Pain is ready, pain is waiting
Primed to do it's educating
Unwanted, uninvited kin
It creeps beneath your crawling skin
It lives without it lives within you

Feel the fever coming
You're shaking and twitching
You can scratch all over
But that won't stop you itching

Can you feel a little love ?
Can you feel a little love ?
Dream on, dream on

Blame it on your karmic curse
Oh shame upon the universe
It knows its lines
It's well rehearsed
It sucked you in, it dragged you down
To where there is no hallowed ground
Where holiness is never found

It's no good

I'm going to take my time
I have all the time in the world
To make you mine
It is written in the stars above
The gods decree
You'll be right here by my side
Right next to me
You can run, but you cannot hide

Don't say you want me
Don't say you need me
Don't say you love me
It's understood
Don't say you're happy
Out there without me
I know you can't be
'cause it's no good

I'll be fine
I'll be waiting patiently
Till you see the signs
And come running to my open arms
When will you realise
Do we have to wait till our worlds collide
Open up your eyes
You can't turn back the tide

Don't say you want me
Don't say you need me
Don't say you love me
It's understood
Don't say you're happy
Out there without me
I know you can't be
'cause it's no good

I'm going to take my time
I have all the time in the world
To make you mine
It is written in the stars above

- Depeche Mode

Looking for you

...I've found myself.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

The fly

just let it be...

It's the NOW again !

" The Ego looks for liberation from its unsatisfying, unsatisfactory state.
It looks like the ego knows something is missing but it always looks in the wrong place, it looks there, but never here. It never goes deep into life, into what IS, it ignores the simple reality of the present moment, and looks towards the next moment for satisfaction: that which i can add to make me complete.

When the future comes, it is a now already.

The ego always wants to use this present moment to get there, to that future moment. Everything and everybody can be an obstacle for the ego.

That is the disfunctionnal state of counsciousness, that is condemn to perpetual discontent. "

- Eckhart Tolle

6th Sense

"Some magic's real"

Meet Joe Black

Susan Parrish: Tell me you love me now.
Joe Black: I love you now. I love you always.
Joe Black: Thank you for loving me.
Joe Black: I can't believe you people. I come for you, and you want to stay, I let you stay and you want to go.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Dreamcatcher

Now I know why i love feathers so much: I used to be a dreamcatcher in a past life :)

And this would also explain why I dream...eyes wide open !

Unforgettable

Unforgettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that's how you'll stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too...

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Leben/Life

I feel you...
in every stone
in every leaf of every tree
you've ever grown


I feel you...
in everything
in every river that might flow
in every seed you might have sown

I feel you...
in every vein
in every beating of my heart
each breath I take
[in every breath i'll ever take]

I feel you...
anyway...
in every tear that i might shed
in every word i've never said

I feel you...

Amnesya

Maybe you don't remember me and that's why you talk to me like to a stranger.
But I remember you.

How could I forget ?

Today I woke up

and I was everything I wanted to be.

I forgave myself of everything that had ever made me feel ashamed.
I loved everyone everywhere… even those who hurt me.
I sent love to those who have lost their way.
I wasn’t afraid… of anything anymore.

I realized… I was endowed with all the power of the Universe,
to think… to feel… and create, and to love all that I have created.
I reveled… in the realization that this… is the sum total of all I have intended for myself to date.

I realized… that right NOW is the only moment there ever really is, was, or will be.
I knew… that all my past, except what was good, was gone.
I made a pact with myself never to forget… to hold this feeling as if it were a little child… for indeed, it was."


- Daniel Votino

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Role-play

When we are used to play the roles so many times, we might end up forgetting ourselves and identifiying with those roles. And as we play again and again, we become more and more addicted to those roles and our ego grows up feeded by the role's succes and admiration of the others.

And when, one day, something special happens that makes us forget about the acting and we realize that we are not those roles, that very moment we feel released and light like a plum, lifted on the cloud nine.

But the next day our ego fights back because it knows it is about to lose its acting identity and makes us confused, not knowing WHO we are anymore...

Now, the question is: do you want to dissipate confusion or you want to find out who you really are...?

I bet your ego will help you dissipate confusion in the easyest and only way it knows: by nominating you for the Oscar and making you so proud of your roles.

In oglinda

Cred ca ne este dat sa vedem greselile celorlalti nu pentru ca ego-ul nostru sa se umfle in pene si sa se simtim 'superiori' in cazul in care noi nu am comis (inca) acea greseala si nici pentru a folosi acest lucru drept scuza pentru greselile noastre similare, ci pur si simplu pentru a ne recunoaste propriile greseli si pentru a le putea corecta.

We hurt the most

...the ones we love the most.

Maybe because we've been through sorrow in our life and when love shows, our pain-body is so much affraid of dying that it will start use whatever means it finds in order to keep itself feeding and growing the sadness.

And whose pain is the most tasty if not the pain of the ones we love the most ???

I'm not gonna feed this pain-body with my 'sorry for you' feeling anymore.
No more tears, my love. I promise.

Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone


Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Pocket full of sunshine

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me.
Do anything you can to control me.
Oh, no.


There's a place that I go,
But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow,
And I call it home.

And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.

The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Zebra

I can be loud man, I can be silent
I could be young man or I could be old.
I can be a gentleman, I can be violent.
I could turn hot man or I can be cold.
I could be just like the calm before the storm both,
Waiting for all hell yeah to break loose.
I could be innocent or I could be guilty
Doesn't mean that I don't believe in no noose

So I'm singin'

I could be rich like a wandering Gypsy
I could be poor like a fat wallet lost.
I could be first man or I could come last
It's not who breaks the ribbon boy it's how you get across.
I could be red blue black and white sunset
Or darkest at day boy or brightest at night
I could be the sun man I could be the moon
I'm made up from the stars boy I shining so bright.

So I'm singin'

I could be asleep boy, or I could be awake
I can be alive and a be the walking dead
I can be ignorant, or I could be informed (Yes sir)
I could lead my life man or I could be led (That's right)
I can be anything I put my mind to boy
All I gotta do is give myself half a chance
I can bring love back into my life
And share it with the world if I got some balance

So I'm singin'

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Six blind men

I asked myself several times if is it there one/objective truth or rather several/subjective truths...?

Many times i had the feeling that each person's "truth" is true and valid. Somehow.
But, on the other hand, something was fishy in Denmark. However, I couldn't just delcare "oh, boy, you are so wrong!".

I agree, there might be different perspectives on a fact, but on its very essence that fact is only one.

The story below might help understand what i am trying to say here :)

Six blind men encounter an elephant – although how they knew that it was an elephant the story does not recount. The first touches its trunk and says that an elephant is like a palm tree, another touches its side and says that an elephant is like a rough wall. Another feels its tail and says that an elephant is like a piece of rope. Each comes into contact with a different part of the elephant and is convinced that their own explanation is correct and that the others are wrong.

None of them realises that they are all experiencing just one part of the same elephant and that none of their explanations are complete.

Death

"Death is a stripping away of all that is not you.
The secret of life is to "die before you die" --- and find that there is no death."

- Eckhart Tolle

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Past, Present and Future

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be."


so true...

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Si tu ne m'aimes pas

Moi, je t'aime!

Et si je t'aime
Prends garde de toi !


:))

p.s. multumim Angela Gheorghiu pentru minunatul concert din aceasta seara

Friday, September 18, 2009

Together

We are rather complimenting each other, not complementing.
Simply because we already are complete :)

And our uniqueness makes each of us different sui generis, complimenting each other for it.

How wonderful this can be !!!! :))

Unwritten

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning,
The pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We`ve been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can`t live that way ...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Sfatul zilei

"Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says "Oh Crap, She's up!"

Eu cand citesc chestia asta am in minte imaginea unei femei constienta de personalitatea ei, echilibrata, inteligenta, detasata de ego, lipsita de frustrari si/sau atasamente, tot timpul cu zambetul pe buze, careia nu ii este teama de responsabilitati, plina de compasiune si rabdare, increzatoare in ea insasi si fara prejudecati fata de ceilalti.

Ei, acum, cum sa nu il apuce tremuriciul pe necuratul cand are de-a face cu o astfel de femeie pe care nu o poate pacali asa ushor prin metodele lui clasice ce sapa la baza increderii de sine, inoculeaza sentimente de vina si/sau teama, frustrare, ura, angoasa, invidie, gelozie, depresie, neputinta...etc ???!!!

saraku...mi-e mila de el
o sa ramana shomer :)))

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Meditating on the meditation

What is meditation ?
That's a good question.

It's more simple to say what's NOT meditation: 'the idea that you are doing a meditation can be quite an obstacle.'

"It's not a doing, it's a realization that you are...Not who you are...but the simple fact that you are. "


Stillness of mind...

To paraphrase this beautiful song of Lenny Cravitz - stillness of heart - I will say that 'all that I want, is stillness of mind'...

I've always had a restless mind, always questioning, always interrogating...investigating, wondering and doubting.

And what if what i am looking for on this endless journey is actually ... the stillness ??? :)
The space between words or the pause between thoughts...

I'll try to remember this wisdom quote from Eckhard Tolle:
"When you lose touch with inner stillness, you lose touch with yourself."

Thursday, September 10, 2009

More or less

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I most need it."

- Chinese proverb

Shine on you crazy diamond (2)

Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Pile on many more layers and I'll be joining you there.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
And we'll bask in the shadow of yesterday's triumph,
and sail on the steel breeze.
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser,
come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine!


- Pink Floyd

Shine on you crazy diamond (1)

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the cross fire of childhood and stardom,
blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger,
you legend, you martyr, and shine!

You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Treatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter,
you piper, you prisoner, and shine!



- Pink Floyd