Thursday, October 29, 2009

Tip of the iceberg

I've recently realized that some relationships are like an iceberg.
And I don't mean cold as an iceberg, but rather deep.

You see the tip of the iceberg, that surface side of the relationship, where everything is visible and bright, sparkling and joyful. You enjoy the visible, manifested side of it, through communication, sharing thoughts, feelings, music, movies, books, ideas, opinions...kisses and touchings.

And then, one days, all this stops.
And you feel sad because you think you lost something beautiful and so intense. And you are forced (?) to leave the iceberg and to take distance. However, you feel still connected, deep inside, you still feel that there is something more than this. You can feel it, but you cannot see it, and you start wondering if you lost your minds or what ?!

And while you are taking the distance, vertically or horizontally, at some point you turn and see the iceberg on its holy wholeness: the visible lighted tip...and also the hidden body of it, emerged into the deep blue waters of the ocean.
And that moment is a pure moment of bliss...and you realize that the ocean is nothing but yourself, your inner self (part of the universal Self) where the iceberg came from the first place...and where it majestically submerges and floats now...and where it will silently melt later.

Let's play !

So, first you hide yourself
And then you seek yourself.
In order to find yourself.

I'll play this game with you, but I'll have to pretend I never found you.
Or myself...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Have you ever really loved a woman ?

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

To really love a woman
Let her hold you
Do you know how she needs to be touched ?
You gotta breath her
Really taste her
To you can feel her in your blood
Then when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

You got to give her some faith
Hold her tight
A little tenderness
You gotta treat her right
She'll be there for you
Taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Thank you, my friend !

-"But what will you do?" the Little Soul asked, just a little nervously, "that will be so terrible?"
-"Oh," replied the Friendly Soul with a twinkle, "we'll think of something."
Then the Friendly Soul seemed to turn serious, and said in a quiet voice, "You are right about one thing, you know."
-"What is that?" the Little Soul wanted to know.
-"I will have to slow down my vibration and become very heavy to do this not-so-nice thing. I will have to pretend to be something very unlike myself. And so, I have but one favour to ask of you in return."
-"Oh, anything, anything!" cried the Little Soul, and began to dance and sing, "I get to be forgiving, I get to be forgiving!"
Then the Little Soul saw that the Friendly Soul was remaining very quiet.
-"What is it?" the Little Soul asked. "What can I do for you? You are such an angel to be willing to do this for me!"
-"Of course this Friendly Soul is an angel!" God interrupted. "Everyone is! Always remember: I have sent you nothing but angels."
And so the Little Soul wanted more than ever to grant the Friendly Soul's request.
- "What can I do for you?" the Little Soul asked again.
-"In the moment that I strike you and smite you," the Friendly Soul replied, "in the moment that I do the worst to you that you could possible imagine ~ in that very moment..."
-"Yes?" the Little Soul interrupted, "yes...?"
- "Remember Who I Really Am."
-"Oh, I will!" cried the Little Soul, "I promise! I will always remember you as I see you right here, right now!"
-"Good," said the Friendly Soul, "because, you see, I will have been pretending so hard, I will have forgotten myself. And if you do not remember me as I really am, I may not be able to remember for a very long time. And if I forget Who I Am, you may even forget Who You Are, and we will both be lost. Then we will need another soul to come along and remind us both of Who We Are."
-"No, we won't!" the Little Soul promised again. "I will remember you! And I will thank you for bringing me this gift ~ the chance to experience myself as Who I Am.
-" And so, the agreement was made. And the Little Soul went forth into a new lifetime, excited to be the Light, which was very special, and excited to be that part of special called Forgiveness.
And the Little Soul waited anxiously to be able to experience itself as Forgiveness, and to thank whatever other soul made it possible. And at all the moments in that new lifetime, whenever a new soul appeared on the scene, whether that new soul brought joy or sadness--and especially if it brought sadness--the Little Soul thought of what God had said.
- "Always remember," God had smiled, "I have sent you nothing but angels."

The Little Soul and The Sun - A Children's Parable by Neale Donald Walsch

Monday, October 26, 2009

King's Fool

In this play your name might not be Lear. And my role not to make jokes.
But the rest is just the same.
So is the Truth.



...or madwoman
soul brothers and soul sisters...


“Whoever wants music instead of noise, joy instead of pleasure, soul instead of gold, creative work instead of business, passion instead of foolery, finds no home in this trival world of ours.”~151

“I say to myself: all we who ask too much and have a dimension too many could not contrive to live at all if there were not another air to breathe outside the air of this world; if there were not another eternity at the back of time; and this is the kingdom of truth.”~152

- Herman Hesse (Steppenwolf)

Friday, October 23, 2009

Lost generation (?)

" I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
is more important than
I tell you this
Once upon a timeFamilies stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my
divorceI do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it . "

(Lost generation by Jonathan Reed)

now read these lines from the bottom to the top
what do WE choose, in the end...?

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I'm loving angels instead...

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
when I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know I'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Enlightened relationships

" So whenever your relationship is not working, whenever it brings out the "madness" in you and in your partner, be glad. What was unconscious is being brought up to the light. It is an opportunity for salvation. Every moment, hold the knowing of that moment, particularly of your inner state. If there is anger, know that there is anger. If there is jealousy, defensiveness, the urge to argue, the need to be right, an inner child demanding love and attention, or emotional pain of any kind ― whatever it is, know the reality of that moment and hold the knowing. The relationship then becomes your sadhana, your spiritual practice. If you observe unconscious behavior in your partner, hold it in the loving embrace of your knowing so that you won't react. Unconsciousness and knowing cannot coexist for long ― even if the knowing is only in the other person and not in the one who is acting out the unconsciousness. The energy form that lies behind hostility and attack finds the presence of love absolutely intolerable. If you react at all to your partner's unconsciousness, you become unconscious yourself. But if you then remember to know your reaction, nothing is lost. "

- Eckhart Tolle (The Power of the NOW)

Friday, October 16, 2009

Templul Soarelui

O seara rece de octombrie, cu temperaturi sub cele normale pentru aceasta perioada si vant puternic. Si pe cat de catzea era vremea de afara, pe atat de pisicoasa atmosfera dinauntru: la restaurantul Templul Soarelui. Muzica in surdina, relaxanta, arome proaspete si abur cald iesind din boluri, lumina placuta si...un fel de bucurie ce plutea in aer.
Nu stiu cine a bucatar in acel local, dar cu siguranta pune suflet cand gateste. Si asta se simte.

La Multi Ani, Gabitza !!!!! :)))

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

When you (really) lose hope...

...something special happens: you are no more tortoured by the bitter-sweet spectrum of a possible future happiness, but you feel happy in the simple present.

Hope is just another drug.

Not your martyr

The price I am paying is no price.
Your pain is no pain.
Love is not something that I trade.
Love just is. I just am.

It's all around ... outside and inside.
It flows through...and I let it be.

Back from Zombieland

Cochetam intelectual cu ideea ca trecutul e mort iar viitorul nu s-a nascut inca, si totusi traiam practic in taramul Mortilor Vii. Probabil ca era mai comod sa ma tot plang de trecut si sa imi ling ranile intr-un mod elegant, ca pisica, tacticoasa, facand pe interesanta, in loc sa ma bucur cu adevarat de momentul prezent care, prin simplitatea frumusetii lui te poate lasa fara grai. " Vai !!! cum, ai spus 'fara grai' ????!!!! Nu, nu, nu, nu se poate. EU (trebuie sa) am replica la orice. Ai inteles ??? Orice !!!! "
Si cand ma plictiseam de lins ranile, postam in happy-to-be, la gandul ca voi face cutare si cutare kestie, gen o calatorie interesanta, un concert, o intalnire etc etc etc.

Deci, sa revenim, ca deja deviez: ziceam ca trecutul e mort si viitorul nu s-a nascut inca. Pana aici toate bune. Asta inseamna ca: 1. Trecutul se odihneste in pace (despre morti numai de bine) iar 2. Viitorul cand se va naste va fi deja ... Prezentul.

Ura si la gara !!!! :))

All roads lead to Rome

Today a friend posted this story about an amazing man who's wonderful mind can carry the smallest detail of an image.

When I checked the video, my wonderful hart remembered all the little details I carry about Rome: the imperial city of the eternal ...rise and fall.
In love.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Magic (not) for free

“When two people meet and fall in love, there's a sudden rush of magic. Magic is just naturally present then. We tend to feed on that gratuitous magic without striving to make any more. One day we wake up and find that the magic is gone. We hustle to get it back, but by then it's usually too late, we've used it up. What we have to do is work like hell at making additional magic right from the start. It's hard work, but if we can remember to do it, we greatly improve our chances of making love stay.”

- Tom Robbins

p.s. this idea reminds me of the Celestine Prophecy: Romantic Addiction

Monday, October 12, 2009


Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Mysterious equation

"I've made the most important discovery of my career... the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am... You are all my reasons. "

- A beautiful mind


Vineri seara, Muzeul National de Arta.
La intrare o mare de oameni, agitati, nervosi, galagiosi, inghesuiti si revoltati incearca sa intre la concertul cu "intrare libera" sustinut de Alexandru Tomescu la celebra vioara Stradivarius.

Noroc ca facusem rezervare, altfel nu aveam nicio sansa.
Asa ca m-am imbulzit senina printre zecile de oameni nervosi si am ajuns in sala.
Parca am ajuns in alta lume...Totul era in semi-intuneric, liniste...joc de lumini si culori de la tablourile proiectate pe scena si, bineinteles, jocul minunat al sunetelor stradivariene.

Morala: mai intai trebuie sa treci prin iad ca sa ajungi in rai.

p.s. Multumim Alexandru Tomescu pentru bucuria pe care o impartasesti cu noi.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

A beautiful mind

"Once you have identified with some form of negativity, you do not want to let go, and on a deeply unconscious level, you do not want positive change. It would threaten your identity as a depressed, angry, or hard-done-by-person. You will ignore, deny or sabotage the positive in your life. This is a common phenomenon. It is also insane.

Every addiction arises from an unconscious refusal to face and move through your own are using something or somebody to cover up your pain. That is why, after the initial euphoria has passed , there is so much unhappiness, so much pain in intimate relationships. they do not cause pain and unhappiness. They bring out the pain and unhappiness that is already in you. Every addiction does that.

Nobody chooses dysfunction, conflict, pain. Nobody chooses insanity. This happens because there is not enough presence in you to dissolve the past...You are not fully here. You have not quite woken up yet. In the meantime, the conditioned mind is running your life....if you are one of those people who have an issue with their parents, if you still harbour resentment about something they did or did not do, then you still believe they had a choice--that they could have acted differently. It always looks as if people had a choice, but that is an illusion. As long as your mind with its conditioned patterns runs your life, as long as you are your mind, what choice do you have? None. You are not even there. The mind-identified state is severely dysfunctional. It is a form of insanity. Almost everyone is suffering from this illness in varying degrees. The moment you realise this, there can be no more resentment. How can you resent someone's illness? The only appropriate response is compassion. "

- Eckhart Tolle (The power of the NOW)

Friday, October 9, 2009

How it feels to have a stroke ?

It's like a bliss...

Strongest drug

= L I F E

p.s. no need for substitutes to feel alive :)

Praying for a miracle

...I realized that the miracle was already happening every second and it's called LIFE.

Thank you God !


"Joy does not come from what you do, it flows into what you do and thus into this world from deeper in you."

- Eckhart Tolle

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Can you hear the silence ?

The snow has its own language.

Note to self

- Don't take yourself too seriously.
- Don't take it too personally.


is like a have to share it to enjoy it."

- Bernard Meltzer

Cutia cu bijuterii

Multa vreme mi s-a parut absurda ideea de a iubi doi barbati in acelasi timp. Mintea mea pur si simplu nu accepta lucrul asta. Dar inima mea stie acum ca e posibil: fiecare relatie si experienta de viata petrecuta alaturi de un barbat pe care l-am iubit mi-au lasat drept mostenire o amintire. Dar nu o amintire in sensul de "fotografie de album" ci o amintire care nu o pot descrie, dar pe care o pot compara cu ...o bijuterie. Si in inima mea am o cutie cu bijuterii. Si imi aduc aminte cu drag de fiecare data momentele din viata mea cand am purtat cu mandrie si bucurie cate una din aceste bijuterii.

Dragostea nu dispare, ea ramane transforma in ceea ce ai tu cel mai de pret. Si lacrimile se transforma in...perle.

De curand am pus in cutia pretioasa un diamant nebun...frumos.

In depth

vertically and not in time horizontally you will find what you are looking for...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

On children

"Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your childrenas living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
And He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable."

- Kahlil Gibran

On marriage

"You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow. "

- Kahlil Gibran

If you are the Ocean

then I am the Shore.
If you are the Words, then I am the Space between your words.
If you are the Thoughts, then I am the Silence between your thoughts.
If you are the Dancer, then I am the Dance you dance.
If you are the Dreamer, then I am the Dream you dream.
If you are the Diamond, then I am the Shine on you.
If you are the Traveller, then I am the Road you less travelled.
If you are the Knight, then I am your Courage.
If you are the Tree, then I am your Stilness.
If you are the Eagle, then I am your Flight.
If you are the King, then I am your Crown.

If you are, then I am
And we are LIFE.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


Stand still.
The trees ahead and bushes beside you are not lost.
Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes.
It answers,I have made this place around you.
If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost.
Stand still.
The forest knows where you are.
You must let it find you.

- David Wagoner

Monday, October 5, 2009


Maybe pain is like a sharp knife that helps you cut through the deep illusion of this world.
But be careful, don't use it to hurt yourself. Or others.

Sun is shining

Sun is shining, the weather is sweet, yeah
Make you wanna move your dancing feet now
To the rescue, here I am
Want you to know, yall, can you understand?

When the mornin gather the rainbow, yeah, yeah
Want you to know, Im a rainbow too now
To the rescue, here I am
Want you to know, yall, can you, can you, can you understand?

Sun is shining, the weather is sweet now
Make you wanna move your dancing feet, yeah
But to the rescue, here I am
Want you to know just if you can, here I stand, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

Can you understand me now, baby?
Do you believe me?

Let it be

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be,
let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be...

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light,
that shines on me, shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be...

In the end

...everything will be ok.

If it's not ok, it's not the end.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Wish you were here

like waves to the shore
part of the ocean
the stars high above
part of the sky

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

like the air that i breathe
you'll always be there
the wings that i need
when i wanna fly

now i drift to you
i dream of a river
a water so blue
wish i could live there

wish you were here..

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Goodnight lovers

Here, somewhere in the heart of me
There is still a part of me
That cares

And i'll, I'll still take the best you've got
Even though I'm sure it's not
The best for me

When you're born a lover
You're born to suffer
Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

I, I can see the danger signs
They only help to underline
Your beauty

I'm not looking for an easy ride
True happiness cannot be tried
So easily

You can take your time
I'll be waiting in line
You don't even have to give me
The time of day

When youre born a lover
Youre born to suffer
Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers

Friday, October 2, 2009

Bad wolf, good wolf

A Kid asked his Grandfather: "Why are some people Bad and some Good ? Why do some people do Adultry ? Murder ? Drunks ?" Etc Etc

The Grandfather said: "Because Each of Us has on the Inside the ability to do Good or Evil. It's like we have 2 wolves inside us. One wolf is Evil. One wolf is Good. One or the other will grow strong and big and be able to do as it wants most of time."

Little Kid asked: "How do you know which wolf is the one that gets big and takes over ?"

The Grandfather said : "It Depends on which wolf you FEED !"

Love is when...

...someone hurts you. But you don't let them see you crying because you know it would hurt their feelings."

- a child

Dream on

As your bony fingers close around me
Long and spindly
Death becomes me
Heaven can you see what I see
Hey you pale and sickly child
You're death and living reconciled
Been walking home a crooked mile

Paying debt to karma
You party for a living
What you take won't kill you
But careful what you're giving

Can you feel a little love ?
Can you feel a little love ?
Dream on, dream on

There's no time for hesitating
Pain is ready, pain is waiting
Primed to do it's educating
Unwanted, uninvited kin
It creeps beneath your crawling skin
It lives without it lives within you

Feel the fever coming
You're shaking and twitching
You can scratch all over
But that won't stop you itching

Can you feel a little love ?
Can you feel a little love ?
Dream on, dream on

Blame it on your karmic curse
Oh shame upon the universe
It knows its lines
It's well rehearsed
It sucked you in, it dragged you down
To where there is no hallowed ground
Where holiness is never found

It's no good

I'm going to take my time
I have all the time in the world
To make you mine
It is written in the stars above
The gods decree
You'll be right here by my side
Right next to me
You can run, but you cannot hide

Don't say you want me
Don't say you need me
Don't say you love me
It's understood
Don't say you're happy
Out there without me
I know you can't be
'cause it's no good

I'll be fine
I'll be waiting patiently
Till you see the signs
And come running to my open arms
When will you realise
Do we have to wait till our worlds collide
Open up your eyes
You can't turn back the tide

Don't say you want me
Don't say you need me
Don't say you love me
It's understood
Don't say you're happy
Out there without me
I know you can't be
'cause it's no good

I'm going to take my time
I have all the time in the world
To make you mine
It is written in the stars above

- Depeche Mode

Looking for you

...I've found myself.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

The fly

just let it be...

It's the NOW again !

" The Ego looks for liberation from its unsatisfying, unsatisfactory state.
It looks like the ego knows something is missing but it always looks in the wrong place, it looks there, but never here. It never goes deep into life, into what IS, it ignores the simple reality of the present moment, and looks towards the next moment for satisfaction: that which i can add to make me complete.

When the future comes, it is a now already.

The ego always wants to use this present moment to get there, to that future moment. Everything and everybody can be an obstacle for the ego.

That is the disfunctionnal state of counsciousness, that is condemn to perpetual discontent. "

- Eckhart Tolle

6th Sense

"Some magic's real"

Meet Joe Black

Susan Parrish: Tell me you love me now.
Joe Black: I love you now. I love you always.
Joe Black: Thank you for loving me.
Joe Black: I can't believe you people. I come for you, and you want to stay, I let you stay and you want to go.