A thousand kisses deep

No matter if the road is long
No matter if it's steep
No matter if the moon is gone
and the darkness is complete
No matter if we lose our way, it's written that we'll meet
At least that 's what I heard you say say
A thousand kisses deep.

- Leonard Cohen

Fear of Love ?

One can make a decision for his/her life based on Fear or based on Love.
If the decision is made on Fear, then this life will be just a fake.
And in the end will fail.
This is the good news.

The bad news is that (most ?) people don't believe in Love anymore and the next decision they will make for their lives will be most probably made based on Fear again...

Seeing Angels

Why do I deserve such a visit
From the one I thought I'd never meet.
Beyond my greatest expectations.
You exceeded everything.

Well, here I am
Take me for what you see
For I'm transparent in the light of you.
And look inside,
See that fire burning bright
The same one that you rekindled inside me

My mouth was dry
only you quenched my thirst
I thought I was last
You told me I was first.

And I thought I was seeing Angels
And now I know I was.
your wings around me
Feel good they always does.

So there I was
Ain't the same man I used to be
But do you still like what you see in me.

Still see through,
always will be with you.
can you stand to see my vulnerability

For I am frightened
Shed so much I clung onto
The only things I have left is this guitar and you.

Nowhere to run
Been out here too long
Under the sun.
Am I too afraid
To get some.
Too afraid to give myself some shade
I hope and pray I do some day.

- John Butler Trio

Message in a bottle

Just a castaway, an island lost at sea, oh
Another lonely day, with no one here but me, oh
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair, oh

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle,

A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but
Love can break your heart

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

Walked out this morning, don't believe what I saw
Hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems I'm not alone in being alone
Hundred billion castaways, looking for a home

I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle

- John Butler Trio

Complete circle

"The soul conceives, the mind creates, the body experiences.
The circle is complete."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

A new dictionary

Sometimes I cannot find an actual word to express what I feel or experience lately.
And I try to imagine how would a visitor from the future explain to a medieval what 'internet clouding' is...for example.

I need a new dictionary/vocabulary...

Infinite monkey

"If you have enough monkeys banging randomly on typewriters, they will eventually type the works of William Shakespeare."

really...???

I wonder what Shakespeare would have to say about this theorem.
He would probably just laugh at it :)

God is a faithless DJ...

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
It's a natural grace
Of watching young life shape
It's in minor keys
Solutions and remedies
Enemies becoming friends
When bitterness ends
This is my church (x3)

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
It's in the world I become
Contained in the hum
Between voice and drum
It's in the change
The poetic justice of cause and effect
Respect, love, compassion

This is my church
This is where I heal my hurts
For tonight
God is a DJ
God is a DJ
This is my church (x3)

As good as it gets

"You make me want to be a better man..."

Something stupid

I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time to spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance,
I know that there's a chance you won't be leaving with me
And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you, for me it's true
It never seemed so right before
I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
And I'm alone with you
The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"("I love you, I love you,...")

There are more things

... in Heaven and Earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”

- Shakespeare (Hamlet)

I died

"I died from minerality and became vegetable;
And from vegetativeness I died and became animal.
I died from animality and became man.
Then why fear disappearance through death?
Next time I shall die
Bringing forth wings and feathers like angels;
After that, soaring higher than angels -
What you cannot imagine,
I shall be that."

- Rumi

Wherever you are

I’m looking for a strong and steady heart
For a love that won’t fall apart
At the first sign of trouble, near or far
I’m looking through eyes that have shed some tears
And I’m looking for that one who’s gonna face my fears
Without thinking he must erase each scar

I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are
Wherever you are love won’t leave you stranded
Wherever you are love won’t let you hide
Wherever you are, one of these days
We’ll be walking side by side
All it takes is some time and destiny

A little courage for those days when all we see
Is a cold lonely rain coming down hard
I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are
Wherever you are love won’t leave you stranded
Wherever you are love won’t let you hide
Wherever you are, one of these days
We’ll be walking side by side

I’m looking for a love that’s meant for me
I can’t be bothered with some wannabe
Just like the light from heaven’s stars
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you
I’m gonna find you baby, wherever you are

Soul, body and mind

The function of the soul is to indicate its desire, not impose it.
The function of the mind is to choose from its alternatives.
The function of the body is to act out that choice.
When body, mind, and soul create together, in harmony and in unity, God is made flesh.
Then does the soul know itself in its own experience.
Then do the heavens rejoice.

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

"Traiti bine?"

"Noi nu. Furam mai bine pana in 2004."

Sa imi explice, va rog, si mie cineva ce vrea sa insemne acest mesaj electoral (?!) pentru ca mintea mea refuza sa accepte realitatea.

Va multumesc anticipat.

Try laughter

"You keep saying you’re embarrassed and chagrined every time I simply tell the truth about you.
Embarrass­ment is the response of a person who still has an ego investment in how others see him.
Invite yourself to move past that. Try a new response. Try laughter."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Precum in cer...

...asa si pe Pamant.

Om de lut

Mi-a trimis Dumnezeu un om de lut
sa nu fiu singura pe pamant

Om de lut cu ochi de cobalt,
in apele lor adanci ma scald.

Om de lut, cu gura de floare,
o vorba m-alina, alta ma doare...

- Margareta Sterian (Om de Lut)

Her morning elegance

Sun been down for days
A pretty flower in a vase
A slipper by the fireplace
A cello lying in its case

Soon she's down the stairs
Her morning elegance she wears
The sound of water makes her dream
Awoken by a cloud of steam
She pours a daydream in a cup
A spoon of sugar sweetens up
And she fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Sun been down for days
A winter melody she plays
The thunder makes her contemplate
She hears a noise behind the gate
Perhaps a letter with a dove
Perhaps a stranger she could love
And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
As she goes in a store
With a thought she has caught
By a thread
She pays for the bread
And She goes...
Nobody knows

And She fights for her life
As she puts on her coat
And she fights for her life on the train
She looks at the rain
As it pours
And she fights for her life
Where people are pleasently strange
And counting the change
And She goes...
Nobody knows

Freedom vs. Happiness

What is happiness if you don't allow yourself the freedom to be who you are, at your full potential ?

What is happiness if you prefer to be like a bird singing in a golden cage...admired by everybody, but affraid to allow yourself the freedom of flying...?

What is happiness if you are looking for it only on the pre-defined scenario you've imagined for your life and not allowing yourself the freedom of an unwritten ending...?

The happiness without the freedom will be just the other face of the sadness...

Pourposefully

- Okay. So I want to find the tools for a long-term relation­ship - and you say entering relationships purposefully is one of them.
- Yes. Be sure you and your mate agree on purpose. If you both agree at a conscious level that the purpose of your relationship is to create an opportu­nity, not an obligation - an opportunity for growth, for full Self expression, for lifting your lives to their highest potential, for healing every false thought or small idea you ever had about you, and for ultimate reunion with God through the communion of your two souls - if you take that vow instead of the vows you’ve been taking - the relationship has begun on a very good note. It’s gotten off on the right foot. That’s a very good beginning.
- Still, it’s no guarantee of success.
- If you want guarantees in life, then you don’t want life. You want rehearsals for a script that’s already been written. Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.
- Okay. Got it. So now I’ve got my relationship off to this very good start.” Now, how do I keep it going?
- Know and understand that there will be challenges and difficult times. Don’t try to avoid them. Welcome them. Gratefully. See them as grand gifts from God; glorious opportuni­ties to do what you came into the relationship - and life - to do. Try very hard not to see your partner as the enemy, or the opposition, during these times."

Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

People don't change

They just remember their Selves.
Or forget their Selves...

I'm dancing with my loneliness again...

i'm dancing with my loneliness again
slowly to the music from within.
i'm dancing with my loneliness again
feeling it can be my only friend.
and i won't let myself go it's too near
- too near to hear, near to hear... to hear...

i'm dancing with my loneliness inside
knowing there's no place where i can hide
dancing with my loneliness inside
there's no other place for me to hide
and i won't let myself go out and cry
i wonder why, i wonder why...

i'm dancing ... romancing

Iubeste si fa ce vrei

"Daca pastrezi tacerea, sa fie din iubire; daca strigi sa fie din iubire; daca indrepti, indreapta din iubire; daca ierti, iarta din iubire. Radacina interioara sa fie cea a iubirii, din aceasta radacina nu poate iesi decat bine.”

- Fericitul Augustin

Keep doing what you don't

I didn't love you for what you did and i will not stop loving you for what you don't.

Beautiful that way

Smile, without a reason why
Love, as if you were a child,
Smile, no matter what they tell you
Don't listen to a word they say
Cause life is beautiful that way.

Tears, a tidal wave of tears
Light, that slowly disappears
Wait, before you close the curtain
There is still another game to play
And life is beautiful that way

Here with his eyes forevermore
I will always be as close as you
remember from before
Now that you're out there on your own
Remember what is real
and what we dream is love alone

Keep the laughter in you eyes
Soon your long awaited prize
We'll forget about our sorrows
And think about a brighter day
Cause life is beautiful that way.

Listen to it

If you chose stop listening to Life this doesn't mean Life stops talking to you...

The Lovers

Basic Card Symbols
An angel or cupid, a man and a woman, two trees (in Waite, it is Adam & Eve with one tree having a serpent and apples) - in some decks one tree is flowering, but the other has fruit. Also in some decks there is a man standing between two women.

Basic Tarot Story
The Fool comes to a cross-road, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do. But he comes to a dead stop. A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he's been planning on taking. But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman. He's met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring. But she is different. Seeing her, he feels as though he's just been shot in the heart with cupid's arrow, so shocking, so painful is his "recognition" of her. As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies; like finding a missing part of himself, a part he's been searching for his life long. It is clear that she feels the same about him. They finish each others sentences, think the same thoughts. It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other. Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, to go somewhere else entirely, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind. Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him. No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future. He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

- Aeclectic

Re-member

"Each soul is a Master - though some do not remember their origins or their heritages. Yet each creates the situation and the circumstance for its own highest purpose and its own quickest re-membering in each moment called now.

Judge not, then, the karmic path walked by another. Envy not success, not pity failure, for you know not what is success or failure in the soul's reckoning."

- Donald Walsch (Conversations with God)

Playing golf

Three men were playing golf. The course was a wicked dogleg with a large water hazard.

The first man stepped up to the tee and hit a sharp slice into the water hazard. He walked up to the water; it parted and he lofted his ball within one foot of the hole.

The next man steped up and hit the ball. Sure enough, he sliced it so that it landed on top of the water. He walked across the surface of the water and and hit the ball within six inches of the hole.The third man stepped up, hit the ball, and sliced it. The ball was just about to land in the water when a trout jumped out of the water and grabbed it in his mouth. An eagle swooped down, scooped up the fish, and flew off. As the eagle banked over the green, lightning struck it, it dropped the fish, the fish dropped the ball, and it landed in the hole for a hole in one.

Moses turned to Jesus and said, "I really hate playing golf with your Dad."

Like swans on a lake

Maybe we are all like swans on a lake.
None is better, none is worse. None is above, none is below.
However, some of the swans know who they are and enjoy their beingness as such, enjoy their grace and beauty, floating on the lake.
But some other keep on being concerned and ask themselves where do they belong to, who are they, what is their meaning, where is their place, what are they supposed to do, where do they have to go...etc.

I like for you to be still

"I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not touch you
It seems as though your eyes had flown away
And it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth
As all things are filled with my soul
You emerge from the things
Filled with my soul
You are like my soul
A butterfly of dream
And you are like the word: Melancholy

I like for you to be still
And you seem far away
It sounds as though you are lamenting
A butterfly cooing like a dove
And you hear me from far away
And my voice does not reach you
Let me come to be still in your silence
And let me talk to you with your silence
That is bright as a lamp
Simple, as a ring
You are like the night
With its stillness and constellations
Your silence is that of a star
As remote and candid

I like for you to be still
It is as though you are absent
Distant and full of sorrow
So you would've died

One word then,
One smile is enough
And I'm happy;
Happy that it's not true"


- Pablo Neruda

Dreamcatcher

Hear my silent prayer
Heed my quiet call
When the dark and blue surround you
Step into my sigh
Look inside the light
You will know that
I have found you...

See you

In Heavens.
In the shadow of a lily...